Friday is my last session with my psychologist. I called a halt a bit before she wanted to but i just cant go over the bad events again and again, it gets me more down that normal! She asked my to come up with some things to talk about in our last session and she wants to focus on my mood, i have told her its not our thing, we talk about a traumatic event we don’t talk about the rest. I only talk to A about that stuff and most of the time i cant talk anyway. These are my topic points i think.
What is depression? How is it classed? At what point can you say you have it?
Is it bad that i want to die? I dont actively want to kill myself but i just wish that something will happen and i die. Is this normal to think. I just dont want to have to feel like this for ever.
How do you stop feeling sad all the time for no reason? When im not busy im sad, how can this be fair, all i want to be able to do is stop relax and enjoy myself bus as soon as i stop my thoughts turn dark.
Is it natural to analyse you thoughts so deeply? Sometimes i think everyone would be depressed if they thought about things to the depths i do. Maybe in a way thinking too hard doesn’t help. Even if i am only trying to find what will help.
How do i control my thoughts? Sometimes it feels like there are little people in my head controlling what i think and do. Do i really agree with what they say, surely i must as they are my thoughts.
How do depressed people get better? What works to stop the feeling of constant sadness?